I Can't Live With or Without You...

Once again I'm falling back to where I always do this time of year, It seems to be him and I are getting closer, we're talking again, I'm not sure if it's a good thing or not but I'm just rolling with it for now.

I learned the other day that he wrote poems about me, and sometime next week I'm actually going to read them, never thought I'd see the day where he'd let me do that. Of course in return he gets to read some of mine too, which I'm not looking forward to but I'm fucking curious.

I've sworn up and down for over a year that I wouldn't date him again, I couldn't. It's just not good for me, but once again I may be breaking another promise to myself. Not like they mean much anyway.

Then there are the two other guys I like, one of them I think I'm getting over and the other on I'm not sure where it stands, but I'm sure nothing will come of either because of my warped views on myself, that only other people see as warped I think they're accurate, and one of them really likes another girl and is still dealing with other bullshit.

I kinda want to just take a break from anything relationship related, I mean the relationship part is far from even being a problem, but the liking people and the constant questioning about who you like is just getting to be a bit more than annoying.

At least I have Hedley to look forward to, FIVE DAYS MOTHER FUCKERS!!!

And with May fast approaching I'll be happier, fucking onset seasonal...

Believe me, It's easy
To scream when you're dreaming
You wonder what's under your bed when you're sleeping.

I love you, I need you.
Like a thousand times before.
Wonder why I hate you.
But I'll scream and ask for more.
I only wanted your attention
At least the hate is some connection
But hey, it's just another Saturday

Believe me, It's easy
To live between the lines.

You're tied up, you're cried up.
You gotta get outta here
But hey it's just another Saturday.
It's only just another Saturday.