If I'm not enough to make you smile, then at least be enough to keep me from crying.

UGH! another day, another rant.

So not only am I tired of being told what to do I think the tall one is now going to try and set me up with his friend. Don't get me wrong I like them both, but I'm not sure I like the idea of dating my friends ex, whether she's over him or not.

I also think slowly but surely, I'm falling in like with one of my radio friends. He's such a nice person and I rarely feel uncomfortable around him, actually I don't feel uncomfortable around him at all. We talk like we've known each other longer than a year, but we still don't know much about each other.

On a side note, the only one of my exes that I still talk to on occasion has another girlfriend. Thanks to this once again he won't talk to me. Thanks jerk-face. I mean it totally helped the getting over him process like a million notches, which is good because the faster I'm totally done with him, the more my ridiculous fear of commitment fades, of course my fear of rejection increases, but you win some you lose some I guess.

I guess thinking about it now, knowing that he's not there if I do want him back, so it forces me to a place that I haven't been in quite sometime. I don't have that person to run and hide with if I do get rejected, and I don't have the only guy friend I trust more than anyone, because he loses himself in whatever girl he's with. They become all he cares about, and he forgets the people that really care about him.

I wonder what will come of the months to come, hopefully something good, and hopefully a good relationship. Even though I'm too afraid of rejection to try for anything, but at least my commitment problems are easing, at least for now.

On a side note, I found my purple hair dye, and got bored, so tomorrow morning will be fun with all the dye on my face that I'll have to clean off. Me and dye brushes don't always get along.

Oh well, tomorrow is a new day and a new set of problems. I guess it's just the life I have to get used to.