I had a very fun time at Katie's house this weekend in celebration of her birthday. We probably shouldn't have watched so many scary movies with Rowan in the room. We watched The Invisible, The Haunting Of Molly Hartley and the first three installments in the Saw series.
We also made cupcakes and played some rockband. We've learn we will never be a Pixies cover band, especially with Katie on drums.
I'm still nearly heart-broken over the realization of the number of friends I've lost since high-school even in comparison to the great ones I've made.
And I'm still realizing that even if I do get another date, it's going to last long. I'm currently so much of a commitment-o-phobe I can't even commit to plans more than two weeks away. I'd really like that to change because quite honestly I'm so tired of seeing people all coupley and knowing I'm not apart of something like that, and if I do become apart of a couple it won't last long.
I always find away to ruin it. With clingy guys I push them away, well with any guy I pretty much end up pushing them away but with the clingy ones it's worse, because the more they try the harder I push to get them away from me. By the time I realized what I'm doing it's too late to apologize because they're asking if I want to breakup.
I'm of course too guilt-ridden to say that I don't so I end up breaking up with them and hating them within days, in some cases I hated them before we even reached the split.
The current frustration is that I'm not sure, but I think that I like someone. of course with me I'm always second guessing myself.
Plus I'm pissed off because of two kids telling me how to live my life. One insists that I should sleep with my ex, and another one tells me I should date one of the other radio kids... I think they should get their own lives and live them instead of trying to control me.
On another note, I'm pretty sure someone's going to get punched next week. It won't be me.
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